used and useless

i dont know how anyone could feel left out in a two person thing, but thats how i feel. i could be taking initiative but now i feel like whatever i do wont matter. my voice is a lot smaller than the other person and i cant blame anyone but myself. i could let everything happen the way it is, take some credit and do shit i dont reaaaally wanna do but then why even do it if it's not me. and it actually bothers me to see shit out on public to things im part of and never agreed to. its funny how the person who believes in me so much also make me feel so small. i shouldnt feel this way, but i do.